"And I'm blessed by my mother, although I'll never know her and I'll never be lonesome again"
Hi there for those who are reading this, my name is Crusade, I'm 22 from London in the United Kingdom! I've come from and am a part of many wrestling forums. Started at Telly-TV until unfortunately that closed down. I've come to this forum from MachinmaPalooza which was merged into SDH and I'm also currently a part of WrestlingForum.
I've been a fan of pro wrestling ever since I was 5 years. I adored it in the Attitude Era all the way up to 2005 which saw me take a break from it before returning to watching it full time 2011. Looking back I think it was always going to happen as I kept up a little bit throughout the years.
My all time wrestlers are as follows:
As for my current favourites I have several such as Dean Ambrose, Sami Zayn, Enzo Amore, AJ Styles, Minoru Suzuki, Shinsuke Nakamura, Kevin Steen etc. The list goes on. However my absolute top 4 in the business right now are.
Pro wrestling has always been a big part of my life and it always will be. Like many fans I have a real passion for it as a viewer and as a fan. Something which is true now more than ever.
If there is one thing I happen to have a bigger passion for than wrestling its music. I am a massive music nerd and listen to a variety of different genres. I'm not going to be one of those idiots who say "I listen to everything!" when they wouldn't touch death metal with a pole but I do listen to a lot of music ranging from progressive rock to death metal to indie to ambient to hardcore to post rock and a number of other genres in between. I'm always discovering new music and evolving. I'm not what you call a casual listener. I don't like or accept everything that is on the radio, I despise most pop but respect the hell out of pop music that is done well. I cannot stand radio rock. Don't come to me with your three days grace or breaking benjamin or staind or any other band that has the same ideas recycled and done to death in a boring manner over and over again. It does nothing for me. Sorry to be blunt about it but it's the truth. It's because of that that my taste in music can be deemed as "weird" by most even though it really isn't. Once you have that moment where everything clicks and you realize what music can be then there is no turning back. Some get it, some don't but later on in life have that same epiphany and some never will. But that is fine, I'm not trying to sound elitist or above people, I just know I'm not the only one with the same mindset.
I love a lot of music but these particular bands/artists have a special place in my heart.
Between the Buried and Me
Without this band I wouldn't have the mindset and the music taste I have today and that's the truth. Discovered them through a friend when I was 14 and got into them when I was 16. Colors changed my life, it was a turning point for me in terms of what I valued in music. The desire to push boundaries, to be different, to make unique music that stands out but also have a sense of emotional connection with the listener. Between the Buried and Me bring all of that out as a progressive metal outfit. Without these guys a lot of the music I listen to now I would have never even tried to listen to.
My inspiration. I will go on record saying that I am her biggest fan. Her music just takes me on another level when it comes to emotional rollercoasters. Amazing songwriter, fantastic lyricist. She writes the most beautiful and emotionally charged music I have ever listened to. She is the one musician and even person in the world I want to meet above everyone else. I cannot wait till she comes back to the UK so I can finally meet her. I love her music more than anything beyond words.
There are so many more I could name but I limited it to my top 5 of all time. These bands have effected me the most in my life and have been my most listened to.
If you actually read through all this then thank you and I hope you enjoyed reading it as I have writing it. I'll leave you with the song from the beginning and ending lyrics I quoted on my profile.
"And I'll wait for my mother to hope that she bothers, to hold me and keep me while.....to hold me and keep me a while"
Hey guys, so about a few days ago I was listening to To Bid You Farewell by Opeth and got the inspiration to do some creative writing. I was going to share it earlier but hadn't gotten round to it. Anyway, here is what I wrote, a piece of creative writing which I called Ghost. I guess you can call it a poem but I don't really know haha. Be warned, it is a very sad piece but it's how I write best.
I am but a ghost to the natural eye
An invisible presence amongst the masses
Ignored by those most desirable
A stranger even around my own peers
A morose searching for contentment in the wrong places
Every day I am awaiting and awoken by sunrise
Glumly embracing my own sense of solitude
Perilously trying to remain unbroken
Hiding an undercurrent of somberness
A stiff upper lip is the order of the day
A man cannot parade emotional deficiency
In the face of an endearing public
I have cried but a thousand times yet not shed a single tear
Prevaricating a false sense of security
Whilst decaying from the inside out
The biggest lie I've ever told is that I'm okay
That is the honest truth
But pride and fortitude often becomes the antagonist
And sincerity martyrs for disposition
It's ego's work protecting frailty
Sustaining it's purpose of concealment
Emotional trauma is once more evaded
I often wonder if I'll ever find my love
Or if it's a dream that long lost faded
I'll see her face once more as fair as can be
Longing for fervour and sentiment
Until her soul lifts and drifts into cloud cover and mist
Her frame fading stuck in a glitch where light and sound doesn't exist
Reality seeps back into my mind as her image elapses
The anguish of veracity once more is acknowledged
That maybe a ghost is all I'll ever be
And that love is something I'm never supposed to see
So this was something I've just thought of now and would be interested in hearing you guys thoughts on this. The concept of sin is something that has been around for hundreds if not thousands of years and in a lot of life times has helped people define what is right and wrong. What I'm interested in is in the year 2014, is this a concept you believe in when it comes to morality?
Personally as an atheist and first and foremost a humanist, I've always seen sin as a man made concept used in order to give us a moral guidance rather than something ordained from a higher power. Morality or what is seen as right or wrong has always been determined by the sorts of societies we live in and what humans see as the right and wrong way to treat people. That is why our moral compass as humans has always evolved and religion has had to try and keep up. For example, homosexuality traditionally has always been seen as a sin by the Abrahamic religions and therefore societies during that time could get away with discriminating homosexuals. But these days, it is seen as wrong to discriminate against homosexual people and homosexual people are generally accepted as normal human beings by anyone with half a brain.
If we look at the cardinal or seven deadly sins themselves as well as what is considered sin in general, a lot of them go completely against human nature or even try to inhibit what it means to be human. I guarantee if we ran by what is morality solely based on the concept of sin, a lot of us would be guilty of a lot things and if we went completely by the book, we'd all be in hell if you believe in that sort of thing. I'd say I've been guilty of all the cardinal sins but particularly lust and envy. But shouldn't we judged by our actions rather than our thoughts and feelings? I'm pretty sure everyone would agree with me on that one.
That is why any sane person would say me thinking about women in a lustful way is considered human/normal whilst Catholic priests who have molested children in the past should rightly be condemned and imprisoned.
Well I tried doing this when it was much more frequent these threads and it never really took off but now I've been on this site longer maybe this'll actually draw some interesting questions. Fire away!
Nice simple game I've come up with. Ask the user below a question about whether or not they would do something. It can be about literally anything, make it as outlandish as you want! If you have already done the activity in question then you can also mention that too .
I was already a fan of Ellen Page as an actress but today I came across something which has greatly rose my respect and admiration for her. This speech at the Time to Thrive Conference held by the Human Rights Campaign touched a lot of issues that I believe in strongly. This contains pretty much her coming out as lesbian but addresses much deeper issues than that. Truly moving, motivational and inspirational to someone like me is ultimately a humanist first and foremost.